A Sum Up of Several Events

As promised, a picture of my mini cherry cream cheese tart. This is not my most flattering picture of it but i guess the most important is, janji boleh makan right??? I dun have cherries so i used strawberry jam to replace it instead. The base is made of wafers. I like it chilled but my brother likes it out of the oven..

I have been planning to bake a vanilla sponge with filling for a long time too.. I have never really baked a layer type of cake before so this is my first attempt. Not my best, but better than i could hope for. The picture below is the plain vanilla sponge before i disected the cake into two. The consistency was pretty ok on the top but i regret that i did not follow the recipe's instruction for MELTED butter. I just scooped the butter out so it was pretty solid. And ANY experienced baker will tell you that anything solid or heavy doesnt go well with sponges. Haiz.. silly me for overlooking that.

Here, I have spread some strawberry jam, added some fruits and whipped cream! I love whipped cream. It's so light and frothy! Then the top layer goes on top and wa lah... you have fresh fruit cake..
My hands were itching to play with the whipped cream so i added more as the topping. But i seriously think that whipped cream goes better as filling. The picture above was taken a few hours after the cake was in the fridge, so the cake absorbed all the fluffy and cute appeal of the whipped cream.

I am looking forward to eating this tonight!

And then today, i spent my day at Midvalley.. Had my unagi spaghetti lunch at Pasta Zanmai. The unagi was melt-in-the-mouth delicious. Spaghetti was so-so.
Midway while eating the waiter served this to me. I was surprised coz i only ordered the spaghetti but i took it anyway, coz it looked good. Lolz.

The corn soup was very good. The top is actually some sort of pastry, imagine chicken pie pastry? Just that it is not so oily. Yet, it's still flaky. Wish i can learn how to make that pastry skin thing. It was used to cover the bowl of soup. Very imaginative and creative presentation. Corn soup was thick and nice, like campbell's chicken soup. Total amount was RM26.45. They didnt count the soup in (=FREE!)

Then, i watched Hachiko. It is the best movie i have ever watched in my life. Honestly. I love the show. It has all the elements of a good movie. I like how the movie was translated to us, from a doggie's perspective. I was blubbering the whole way through the movie, *spoiler alert* especially the part where the professor's wife sees Hachi waiting at the train station... 10 years later! It was such a pitiful scene...

Cream Cheese is All the Craze

Not in the mood to study.

Spent my first free weekend in months on the law and society research paper. Ish. Don't let me start on that. Lolz.

But of course, my hands were itching to work on some cakes or sorts. I baked cupcakes with cream cheese and strawberry filling. The batter was a little too sweet for my liking and i should have been more generous with the cream cheese. But that aside, I really like the cakey texture of the cupcake.

Now, the next thing on my agenda is.. Cherry Cream Cheese Tart!

I know, I love baking.

Unexpected Night

Hmmm.... what does this place look like?

Home?

Study table?

Look further....

You see someone ignoring me..

Yea, studying hard..

At A & W!

First time I've ever studied in a fast food joint.. Not bad, did quite some revising... Thank you, cy, for the unexpected night... XOXO

bits and pieces, here and there

I shouldn't have walked away

I would've stayed if you said

We could've made everything OK

But we just

Threw the blame back and forth

We treated love like a sport

The final blow hit so low

I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall

Shattered in pieces curled on the floor

Super natural love conquers all

'Member we used to touch the sky

(Angels Cry by Mariah Carey)

But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye

(Angels Cry by Mariah Carey)

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor

Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

(Need You Now by Lady Antebellum)

Don’t you wish you had a time machine

That way you could change history

That's the only way that you could be with me

(Yesterday by Toni Braxton)

Actually i have many things to say about my life right now.

Just that i can't find the right words to say it out.

On a brighter note, cy popped over to my hs last night while i was still around UM. I wonder if he came only because i msged or if he really was planning to come. I guess it is the former? Regardless, i am thankful he came. Hate that we never learn from our mistakes tho.

Had mcflurry from old town mcdonalds.

I told him i wanted a quarter pounder with cheese to top it of and he was kind of shocked. Haha. It was just a joke. I will never touch a McDonalds burger in my life. Sundae cones and mcflurr-ies are a different matter. Last night reminded me of how good it felt to be loved, again.

How do i describe last night? Maybe like tasting dark chocolate with 85% cocoa? Sitting in your car, having our discussion... facing the inevitable fact of life that life aint perfect. Haha.

Makes you wonder if love is permanent

does love even truly exist?

pffftt!

It Feels Like So Long

Sort of sad that time has passed so quickly.

We used to be classmates so many years ago. And now, all of us are heading in different directions. I wonder if we will ever meet again when all of us graduates and start our own careers? It seems so far away, but look how far we have gone. From mere kids who fooled around like there is no end to tomorrow to who we are today. A total of seven years??? A degree, for most just take three years. Where will all of you be, guys?

I will miss all of you. Do keep in touch.

Carrot Cake, Finally!

I've succeeded in baking a proper cake after so many months of not baking! Love the (appearance) of the result.. although i haven't tried it but from the looks of it, it should be OK!

I'm like the weather

From a gloomy morning to a mediocre afternoon and right to a cool breezy night!

Forgive me for my previous two 'emo' post for today.. I have been having a lot of emotional shifts today, due to many factors. But now that today is coming to an end, things are beginning to clear up. Contract test is over *phew* (and let's pray hard the lecturers dont start getting us all to be nerds again anytime soon!) and things between CY and I are okay again.

It's really unfortunate i missed going to the movies to watch Devil with you guys.. i was really looking forward to it. Haiz... let's hope we can go to Tenji together next week, kay?

CY took me to Snowflakes for dessert today! Yay! Maybe you dunno how much this means to me, you see... this is the first time we are having night 'dessert' together... Snowflakes at SS15 is actually really close to Asia Cafe. We reached around 9 something and was amazed to see quite a crowd lining up at the counter at such an hour. As it was our first time there, we were spoilt for choices. I went to get a seat for us while CY ordered....

1. Pearl Milk Tea (**/*)

2. Coco-Loco(***)

3. Taroball series with sweet potato + barley + jelly balls (***/*)

4. Black glutinous rice + ice-cream(****)

Do you get the signs? (*) is one star.. (/*) means half.. so Pearl Milk Tea gets 2.5! It was a fair attempt of milk tea but having just returned from my HK trip where i savoured countless cups of milk tea... this one tasted plain and bitter.. huhu... (no offence, dear ;p)

Coco-loco, is what CY ordered for himself. As described by the poster in the restaurant, it is a bowl of coconut shaving (ice shaving with coconut milk, i guess?) with stringz, cincau, and taro balls (i likeee..). Overall appearance was appetizing but somehow, the flavour was a bit strange. Neither santan nor soya bean... No identity! lolz.

The third one... CY claimed that i asked him to order two bowls for myself! Hmmph. Just an excuse to make me fatter! Initially, i didnt really like it.. was eyeing the glutionous rice dessert. But actually this wasnt that bad. Not too sweet and it had a distinct clear flavour and the sweetness was just nice. It didnt transform into an overly sickly sweetness. And i like the generous portion of sweet potatoes served. Thumbs up!

The last but not least, was the black glutinous rice with ice-cream. It was no doubt the favourite for the both of us altho i foud it alittle too sweet. Nice tho... suitable to enjoy on such a cooling night like this.

Thank you so much for the dessert. I won't forget tonight, love!

si budak yang x bekerjasama bergambar.. huh!

Coco-Locco>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Taroballs series with sweet potatoes + pearl barley + 'jelly beans' ^

the beloved black glutinous rice +ice cream ^

'group' picture>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Thank you so much for trying to show the effort i so long to see, dear.... i saw it today! =)

Also, many thanks to Chiao Ying and Syazwan... ^.^

Sitting in my room,

thinking of all the things that have been,

the tears flow endlessly...

you told me countless times

i am 19, not 9

i cannot cry

but if you may,

i need to shed a few tears

for what has become

is not what both of us had dreamed for

but has turned to what is reality

for us all

i cannot stop the hands of time

keeping us as distant as two stars

i want to believe that in the gloomy night

there would be a moon to glow bright

i want to believe that in the dark cloud

there is a silver line

but as i watch the grey skies of the night

nothing but pitch black greets my sight

if what the prophecies says stand true

my heart can never belong to you

and neither yours to mine

for ours is a losing fight

where in the end,

both dies

a broken heart,

i guess can never mend

for this war we fight...

will have no end

I feel very sad.

Conflicts and quarrels affect me more than people think. Even if it is nothing to do with me, I can feel sad if it involves close friends and family. Do you know what's with the big pimple on my right cheek? Yea, it's due to all the emotional turmoil I am facing right now. Haha.

I feel sad that people just cannot see what unhappiness they are causing to others. If everyone wants to live in a joyful happy world, they should just forget their misunderstandings. Life is too short to hate. But the truth is, it is always easier to preach something and do another.

I myself fall into the trap of vengeance and anger. You feel hurt when people dont do something that you hope they did. I think everyone knows what that feeling is like. Just that some people handle it better than others.

I wish our life could be filled with happiness, always quarrel-free. But it almost doesnt happen anymore. I wonder why. Do you? Well, one thing is for sure. I know you are giving up.

It's not so easy to live life anymore. Once upon a time, I used to think that the hardest thing in life was solving Year 3 mathematics problems. But looking back now, I would willingly do millions of mathematics exercises, all just to avoid the messes and chaos life provides for us. You know.. it's really not easy being human.