Awaken

Though it aint new year, i have some resolutions to make tonight. As of 22 March 2011, 12.00am, I resolute to:

1. Stop blogging emo posts (only limited to special circumstances, not allowed to emo in every post)

2. Do charity during my semester break.

3. Be a better listener.

4. Treat everyone with kindness and care.

Btw, The Adjustment Bureau is a great movie, in my opinion.. Goes to show that your destiny is in your hands. It really depends on how much you really want something..

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BOYS

Having a relationship is not easy. A few years back when i first started secondary school, i thought having a boyfriend was cool. People were saying relationships are difficult, young people (like me, then) shouldnt jump into one so early, that we have so much of our lives ahead and shouldnt be tying down to some one at such an early stage of life. Back then, i told myself, if i ever do enter into a relationship, i would do it all right. I wouldnt need to fight with my boyfriend over petty issues, didnt need to worry about this and that of a relationship, and i was that naive to believe that love conquers all. I thought i was smart enough to know the psyche behind a boy's mind and that with that knowledge, i could tackle any relationship and make it smooth-sailing. (To prove my point, i was actually genuinely clueless on why books like "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" were such a hit.)

Dont get me wrong, i am not one to object anybody jumping into a relationship regardless of how young, or how old they are. It's just six years and two relationships forward, now that i am 19 turning onto 20, i have come to realise the truth of all those old (and nonsensical) adults back then. A relationship is not all about having fun, it's not even just about being in love. A relationship is about a commitment with another person that involves not just love, but trust and respect. And oh boy, a relationship aint easy.

I really dont know how to put my thoughts into words right now, but what i am trying to put out is that understanding the opposite gender aint easy. Just like how i thought i knew everything there is to know about boys, it turned out that i am still pretty clueless about that other gender that shares this planet with us girls.

I thought guys like playing hard to get, but i was wrong.

I thought guys didnt like playing hard to get when they have gotten you, but i was wrong too.

I thought there are guys who would actually know how to appreciate girls for who they are, but i was wrong.

Then again, when I thought almost all guys are shallow creatures that are only attracted to hang out with attractive looking girls, i was wrong too.

I thought guys didnt really care about feelings, (yup!) and i got it wrong there.

But when i saw that not all guys are the feeling-feeling type, i realised that i got it wrong again!

I really cant fathom the mind of the boy. I really thought i had it all covered.

When we have a stable relationship, i thought we can be as honest and as close to each other as we like. That means, not playing hard to get, calling the guy when you do miss him, confiding in him about how you really feel and not pretend that you are too busy to answer his call. But somehow, maybe, i got it wrong here, all over again. Because it seems, from all the advice i am taking, maybe it is better if i do. Yet, i dont have the heart to because my heart is telling me that isnt the right thing to do.

You tell me, am i right or wrong this time?

Buffet at Tenji

Went to Tenji with Jolene, Li Ly, Chiao Ying, and Hui Yin after family law lecture today. I have been wanting to go to Tenji since forever (because i heard their coconut drink is nice) but never got the chance. And i got the chance today.. thank you girls, you prevented me from one day of emo-ing at home.

The first moment i stepped into the place, i was in awe. The place was huge and it took some time for me to get used to the layout. I was extremely pleased that there was Haagen Daaz and Baskin Robbins ice-cream to eat. If not, the meal would not have been worth it d (It cost about RM54 per person). I was really happy to see so many stuff.. from the typical sushi and rare seafood (typical japanese stuff) to spicy octopus in some red sauce (it was delicious!) and some of their desserts are worth a try. I would recommend the tiramisu and the green tea cake (cant remember specifically). I am not much of a meat eater so the salmon and raw fish didnt impress me much. Oh ya... another delicious food was the takoyaki! It's really good, the first takoyaki i tried was in Asia Cafe Subang Jaya and the one in Tenji beats that. Hmm... besides that, the coconut drink was a let down. I have tasted better coconuts before.

Mochi.. so full i couldnt even stuff one piece into my stomach..

Egg tarts and durian tarts.. so-so only.. and the durian tart tastes artificial, according to chiao ying.. i didnt try it.. (again, because i was too full)

Takoyaki.. the highlight of my meal!

White chocolate cake with mousse at the base.. mousse was nice, cake was erm.. cake?

Finally the fondue.. i was initially very taken to the fondue. I have never tried eating from a chocolate fondue before and i wanted to try it.. but because i had stuffed myself up with ice-cream already, there was no more space in my tummy.. :(

On the down side, the service is not very fast. Food runs out and tend to take a very long time to refill. Sometimes if you dont request for it, they just leave the buffet plate empty (Baskin Robbins ice-cream and baby octupus as examples).

All in all, the food is considered good, but considering the price we pay, it has to be. Service can be improved on. But the most important thing that day was the company i had. Had a great time with all of you. :)

A Rocking Chair

I am going to stop fretting. I know this is an innate part of me and it would take quite some time and plenty of effort but if i really want to have a happier life, i have to. After all, a lecturer once said:

Worrying is like a rocking chair.. it rocks you but gets you nowhere.

What a beautiful quote!

Blueberry Yoghurt Muffins

As usual, life has been busy and tough lately. I am learning to accept things that come my way, better now.

Just to list a few, i got a RM100 parking summon yesterday (the worst thing is, i barely parked for even 10minutes!), family test came out unexpectedly, the usual confusion and blurness i have now grown accustomed to in tutorials, my parents went on a holiday to Dubai making me miss them, especially my mom, CY's lack of time to spend with me (his version is that i dont have time for him >.<) and the list goes on, but wouldnt want to bore you with it.

I guess i cant always take life so seriously, or else, in the end, the only person who suffers from all that seriousness is myself.

I had an eventful day today. After tutorial, i settled my summonses, got my official driving license, and tore down the ALSA notice board and redecorated it all by myself, though it is still halfway in progress. Came back did some baking.. and before i knew it, CY had come so we could have dinner as promised one month ago.

Do take a look at my blueberry yoghurt muffins below! I have yet to try them.. but they do smell appealing. If you notice, they are a little green.

(a conversation between my brother and i)

Me: Yi Kun, come and have a look at my muffins. Guess what i put in them?

Yi Kun: Apple?

Me: No, of course not apple. Use your brains la.

Yi Kun: @.@

Me: They are blueberries.

Yi Kun: Err.. Why are they green?

Me: Because blueberries are blue. When they mix with the yellow batter, they become green.

Yi Kun: Swt.

Dont worry, rest assured, they are edible. Perhaps the next time, i will just mix the blueberries in right before i bake them in the oven.

Blueberry Cream Cheese Tart

MLS just ended this morning. It wasnt the best paper but thank god not my worst either, i hope. The question left me stun for a moment. Glad i managed to write some things out.

The past few days havent been the easiest for me. Somehow i seem more emotional than usual. Then i realised that i havent been baking for a while.. So.. today, i did some therapeutic baking in the evening. Haha. Baking makes me happy because i love being able to make nice food that can be enjoyed by myself and my family (and CY, of course). It feels so good to be able to build something out of scratch and see it transform from blocks of butter to a delicacy other people can enjoy.

Today, I made some Blueberry Cream Cheese Tarts. It's quite simple to make, yet it's so tasty.

A:

250g cream cheese

40g butter

65g sugar

B:

1 tsp vanilla

1 tsp lemon juice

C:

Egg

Beat ingredients A until smooth. Then add in ingredients B. Stir in ingredient C (the egg).

..and the batter is ready!

I bought the butter casing so the the task of baking the casing was simplified. I just had to fill the batter in. Bake at around 165C for 6 minutes and presto!

But i also went the extra mile by putting in some blueberry puree. XD

Note: When it is just done, expect the cheese filling to be a little soft. It hardens as it cools. Chill it to have it at it's best.

I have less than three weeks with you until you leave Malaysia. I guess this would be the first time you would be out of my reach for such a long period. Every day since Form 4, I have had the priviledge of being able to call you at my whim or see you at least five times a day. I'm sort of afraid for what is in store for us, but in another way, my heart is nodding approvingly. Because when you come back, we can say that we have succeeded in making this relationship work in more than one way. At that time, there would be just so many reasons that our relationship would last, and we would be that one step closer to fulfilling our dreams together.

Pig-italy

Excuse me, but the title is a secret between CY and I. It has been a stressful past week or so, with assignments, lectures, lecturers, events, and conflicts all running my way. But I am so glad things are settled between us. As cliche as it might sound, the sun is that much brighter for me when we are not at war, the weather is that much better when we are having a great time.

Had dinner at Picadilly this evening. The food choices this time round were incredible. Well at least for CY and I, coz we both love spicy food. Northern Indian cuisines for today!

CY's Chef Special Briyani - I would rate it pretty good because of it's general portions of rice and meat. But i guess that is the sort of portion i would deserve to get for that price.. RM11.90. Nonetheless, I will not deny that this was a very hearty dish. Fulfilling through and through.. for carnivours! haha..
This is what I ordered. Mutton briyani. The description on the menu was not very appealing so when this was served to the table, i was impressed. he mutton curry serving was very generous too, and the curry was very spicy... just nice for my liking! The mutton melted in my mouth. RM9.50.

Found this (pic below) under the Thai Desserts Menu. Imagine the bottom layer of mango puree topped with ice shavings and mixed tropical fruits and ice-shaving with a dollop of coconut ice-cream on the top. Personally, I enjoyed it quite a lot around the end (when the ice-cream mixed with the ice-shaving) but it wasnt CY's fav. Nevermind, most important is that i liked it. :DCY had ice mango special for desserts. He and i both enjoyed this very much. Dont be fooled with the exterior.. inside, it's filled with mango cubes, pineapple, and nata de coco as well. And it didnt taste too sweet either.

I had a great time with you today, and i know you did too. I am really glad that things have gotten better.. I hope i wont forget tonight. I want to be able to remember this 10years down the road and laugh at ourselves then. (I bet we would be able to find more similiarities between us then.. ;p)

I Miss Baking!

oh gosh, looking through all the food blogs.. i just realised that it has been a long time since i have baked anything much. I have a strong urge to bake, like, right now.

but i have no time. ;(

[edited] oh by the way, after today, i am officially a legal driver! no more P sticker for me!!! buahahaha!

What Are Words If they're only for good times?

Such a beautiful song. Delicate and touching tune..

Was reminded of the early times in our relationship.. memories came flooding back.

Do take a look at the video.. it's very touching and not just because of the lyrics. Chris Medina, an American Idol contestant actually sang this for his fiancee.

Back in October 2009, Juliana Ramos, Chris' fiancee met an accident which caused her to suffer brain damage. The video sorts of tell parts of the story.

Now, how many guys would actually have that level of dedication and loyalty???